exodus

I've been exiled to the lounge because Phil and Lauren are breaking up right now in our room, or at least I would assume as much. This is probably going to have profound effects on our social life although I'm not sure how right now. I'm not even sure they'll actually break up or if this is just a preemptive strike so to speak, because realistically break-up is inevitable in the long run. I give Lauren enough credit not to stick around if she feels unwanted.

In other news I've been feeling unmotivated and down lately, again. I don't know what it is that causes it, must be hormonal swings. I had an idea that had me feeling upbeat and excited for a few days that I would start an online media umbrella organization under which politics and entertainment and everything societal could be discussed online. I kept thinking about the party system and how deceptive it is, and that a real political alternative deserves to be voiced. Sort of a fine tuning of my rant about Rolling Stone getting lazy a few weeks ago. But lately the more I think about it it just seems futile. Hopefully by giving these thoughts words I'm not solidifying them or making them concrete.

I'm still optimistic about living in / being around Ann Arbor much more next year since it really feels like home. Bloomington feels very alien even though I was really excited to come here. I've gotten used to campus and all the different paths to take between classes, but it still lacks familiarity and I feel like a tourist.